In November, I underwent an immense personal transformation. I’d been suffering from depression since early 2012 (and many times prior to that as well). It had gotten so bad to the point where I didn’t even want to get out of bed, get dressed, or even play with my son, which was usually the only thing that would ever cheer me up. I felt hopeless, useless and as though I were a burden to my entire family. Who wants a sick wife, daughter, mother, etc?
My doctor wanted to place me into an inpatient program, and I was all for the idea, up to the point of going to the emergency room. Then my husband and mother walked through the door. I saw their tear-stained faces and I realized that I didn’t want to be away from them, I didn’t want to be away from my little boy. Something stirred inside of me that night, something changed.
Instead of being placed inpatient, I was put into an intense outpatient behavioral program, meant to teach coping skills and medication education. Initially, I was skeptical and nervous, because in the past I’d been in the program, but never fully completed it. But once I truly immersed myself, everyone could see the change in me. I was a different person, I was happier, and the best part was that I could feel happiness and joy again.
Looking back now, I realize it was all about perspective and the way that I was looking at things in my life. I had been seeing my life as this terrible hopeless mess, and I was only focusing on the negative aspects rather then the huge amount of positive aspects that were right in front of me.
That’s where I got the inspiration for the FibroFighterz Attitude of Gratitude page! By sitting down and thinking about all of the positive’s in our life, it will have a great impact on how we feel about our lives! My resolution for this year is to continually focus on the positives, and try to let go of the negative. Remember….
It’s all about perspective and how you see your life….